Back again

Well, time has passed since my last post hasn't it.

My first words have to be, of course, about my lovely baby Jacob, who should have been two years old last Wednesday. It was a sad day. The kind of sadness that sits so heavily in your chest it almost crushes your lungs. We went to where his ashes are scattered, the little willow trees they planted for him are still there, growing strongly. Sadness takes so much energy doesn't it, a total drain of all your reserves, physically and mentally.

Yesterday wasn't as bad (he passed away 2 years yesterday). We were both okay, me and Nicky. In fact quite up-beat. I didn't do any work I'm afraid, I had to do something to make the most of the sunshine, so cracked on with the garden. I know it's late Joanne, but I have finally planted the bulbs you gave me - thank you!! You never know, they might come up this year (always the optimist) - if not it'll be a lovely surprise next year.

Craft day was a toughie. I was sad, so not my normal self, and the long day loomed ahead ominously. It was a heavy one as well, with Dawn being on without much time inbetween shows. It did me good though, as the normality of it all got me back into the swing of things, and the lovely wonderful Paula came in to help, and covered for me so I could get home a little earlier. We all managed to have a laugh as well, it's damn good to laugh isn't it!

Apart from that things have been trotting on as normal. I was on air today with Charlie, who behaved with his micro dots (Dawn will never forgive him for ruining hers!!), and made a pretty good pop-up card. Been working, trying to crack on with my Uni stuff - and stuff!! Haven't got a clue what I've been doing actually.......mmmmmmm. Oooh, haven't been on here since the show with Tim and Suze (name dropping or what!). It was great, love watching them both in action. It's Nicky's Birthday at the weekend, so off buying his pressie tomorrow, then my sister's 30th on the 9th - party time!! It's a fancy dress, any idea's anyone? I wanted Nicky to be Forest Gump, and I could be Jenny, but he's having none of it. I love Forest Gump, boring sod eh. I'll get him in a wig of some description.

Well, I'm going to load some photo's on the Flickr account of cards and pages I've been working on recently (just to prove I have been doing something!!). I hope my posting hasn't been to sad, I know sadness can sometimes been misconstrued and interpreted as negativity, and there's times you feel you have to shut it all away and pretend your all happy and wonderful (which can sometimes have a positive effect and lift you out of it) but I think to shut it all away can just be bottling up trouble for a later day, so you lucky readers... I'm sharing!! I am looking forward, my plans to do a parachute jump to raise money for SANDS and When you Wish Upon a Star are striving ahead, even the advert scares me - hahaha. If people have sponsored me I'll have to do it though won't I!! That's the plan. Wonder how many people have accidents of the bowel/bladder variety when jumping out of the plane? I think I may leave you with that thought xxxxxx I know, how rude......